Why I Started This Blog

I wanted to start this blog because I have been away as an artist for a long time and my soul which is myself is crying to come back. I have not been doing what artist do which is materialize their inner visions and rejoice in their craft. I haven’t for years, except drawing some instant portrait sketches here and there.

I sell roses for a living, going to bars, which is the closest thing to selling art because for me a rose is such a beautiful art creation though created by nature. My main purpose in life has always been to create beauty and rejoice the viewer with it. But still, selling roses in bars is not my purpose in life and it really makes me feel very nostalgic, so far away from home, my art studio.

I don’t want to continue trying to find out why I have been blocked as an artist for so long, but instead, do something effective about it. The first thing that I thought of doing was to start a blog because it could help me get all the negative considerations and emotions out of my system. This will hopefully lead me to start creating art again as I'm supposed to. I will ramble a bit when necessary.

Lately my frustration with my life has been escalating and I must change it because I have reached the bottom as a non-productive artist. If I'm not going to work my art, then shouldn't I give up my dreams? Ggive away all my canvases? All my art books? All my art supplies? Not ever again say "I'm an artist"? Just stop pretending I am or want to be an artist?

Where do I start to rehabilitate myself if I’m truly an artist? Hey, that statement says I have doubts about being an artist... Ha! But I really know what and who I am so NO MORE DOUBTS.

Before I go to sleep tonight I would like to be able to say "Today I cleaned my working art space and started a piece of art, nothing ambitious, just a drawing, but I created art!" Will I will be able to do this simple task? I will know soon.

After this post I will post some art work created during the time when I was active in my trade, from 1980 until the beginning of this century.